No Ups But Only Downs

Happy birthday and sorry i messed up your day. I know what i said to you really hurts but i was also not of any better. What you said to me was also hurting and awful. I don blame you cause i know both of us was very angry at that particular time. But i really mind when u talked to me in that way. Only being with you will make me feel like i'm the worst person on earth. I thought being in a relationship suppose to be happy but that's not what i feel at all. I really wanted to give up this relationship yesterday. It took me lots of courage to say the two words. But when you started asking me if that is what i really wanted, i couldn't answer. I was worried that i may regret one day. But if i have already chosen what i think is right, i won't take a u-turn. Just the same like you. You mentioned that everytime when you tell me that u're sad, i will just started saying i cannot take it. Do you know how hurt is that?? I really cared for you and that's what i get. I'm really too soft-hearted. I cannot repeat those words twice. Barely nothing can happen if it's just one sides fault. I know i have the responsibility too. Ended up i promised you that i will not ever say the 2 words again. Somehow, i know the same old incident will happen again. You told me to forget everything you said that hurts me, but i can't... really can't.

I always wanted things to go in my way.. but it never happens and it will never will. Am i too silly to think this way??

Summer holidayzzz

Summer is finally here.... which means holiday is here too. About 3 months of holiday, the longest holiday i ever had. Just got over with my final phys and pharm paper yesterday. XD YEAH!!!!!! Some seniors got so excited and they even shouted in the exam hall. Once i got out of the exam hall, my friends started to bombard me with the question.

Sang, Kitty and Ann: How many questions did u abstein??
Me: Erm..... 2

Then they started pointing at me and asking why did i abstein so little. Haha... That was funny^^
The paper was kind of easy, not that tricky.. but then once again, carelessness. *sigh sigh sigh*

Previously was thinking of joining the Randalamous for MCDs, but cause i have no transport back and didn't know they changed the plan to night time. So ended up i went pavilion with ann, annie, cheng, kitty and myung eun instead. We had Ichiban Boshi for lunch plus dinner. And finally, Angels and Demons, the movie i have been 'craving' for even before exams started. It was awesome although at first i was abit blur regarding those christianity terms they were using.. haha... The plot of the story was great, many twist and turns.

Today... Hmm... Woke up at 12 plus, wanted to sleep abit longer but just couldnt. Weird weird... During exam periods, every morning i just din want to get out of bed but still have to force myself to. Now, exams are over, burdens lifted up from my shoulders, the opposite happens. ='( i've been craving for sleep for weeks. Programme of the day, Prince Siddharta Musical in Istana Budaya. The musical was not bad though but just abit too long. The musical started at 8.30pm and ended approximately 11pm. The air-condition in the hall was freezing cold... nearly became ice...

Then later i got a call from Winston, he told me my student ID was with him... Gosh, made me so worried last week. He didnt told me at first that my card was with him. He was beating about the bush first before he told me the truth. Thank alot Winston... ^^

Another day passed. Time ticking awayyyyyyyyy~~~~~~~~~

2 down and one more to go

Finally done with two papers. Biological Chemistry and Pharmaceutics. Biological Chemistry was rather easy (provided that every single past year questions were attempted). Didn't really have time to complete the entire paper. =( Anyway, got over with it now. =) Pharmaceutics today was much easier than what i expected. To tell the truth, studying for this paper was terribly stressing. Part of the reason was because of last minute study.. DUHHH.. it's always my bad habit. Main reason = didnt pay attention or in my own world during lectures. =p

Hmm......One more left, Phys and Pharm which is like one of the toughest paper. Not because there are many facts to study, understand and get absorbed into each and every part of my brain, but it's the T/F questions that starts worrying me. Careless people like me can never score in such papers. Even worst with negative markings. *sigh*

Two weeks of study break is like 2 years. Suffering, tiring, exhausting and bla bla bla..... all the 'you know what' words to describe it. Just cant wait for the upcoming of next week. Outings, movies, shopping, travelling..... all the things that i have not been doing for quite some time. *Angels and demons, i'm so gonna watch you =)*

10.35pm... lazying around for half a day. Have to continue to be lost in books and lecture notes again later. Aim for tonight will be 5 lecture notes for respiratory system =s Seems alot....

i need SLEEPPPPP!!!!!! I wonder how long have i been sleeping at 4 or 5 in the morning???